my old blog

August 9, 2010

Filed under: Writing — Rachael @ 7:01 PM

*Take “I” to be the protagonist.*


Busy-minded, whisked away, in another world, accessible only to few.

But I see you.  Your slumped shoulders endear. Your soft, stuttering voice calls.  Your tears are collected.  Your creaselines worry. Your sleepless nights haunt. Your uneven steps sober.  Your prayers balm.

Externals fade but are ever so real.

July 26, 2010


Filed under: Writing — Rachael @ 7:31 AM

When you see the good-sized plant with big pink flowers…

When you see the middle-aged woman with a crooked step…

When you see the friendly elderly couple who just found out bad news…

When you see the non-complaining hiker whose not supposed to climb with a bad foot…

When you see people weathering life’s bruises well…

Remember Philippians 1:6 (ESV):

“…he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.”

July 20, 2010


Filed under: Uncategorized — Rachael @ 8:28 PM

Trembling heart, trembling feet until the end where there may be a tremulous fall onto the knees before the throne.

But  it is encouraged to go to the throne in confidence –

Hebrews 4:16 (ESV):

16Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

May 26, 2010

Wrinkle Out My Wrinkles

Filed under: Prayer,Writing — Rachael @ 10:32 PM

If I cannot be tessered away from my trials,

Please gift me with Your gifts to fight through them.

If I cannot in my weakness love IT,

Please give me Your love to love who I must and when I must.

Inspiration: A Wrinkle In Time.

April 22, 2010

Even if the dead dog curses…

Filed under: Character — Rachael @ 7:12 PM

2 Samuel 16:9-14 (ESV):

“Then Abishai the son of Zeruiah said to the king, ‘Why should this dead dog curse my lord the king? Let me go over and take off his head.’ But the king said, ‘What have I to do with you, you sons of Zeruiah? If he is cursing because the LORD has said to him, ‘Curse David,’ who then shall say, ‘Why have you done so?’ ” And David said to Abishai and to all his servants, ‘Behold my own son seeks my life; how much more now may this Benjaminite! Leave him alone, and let him curse, for the LORD has told him to. It may be that the LORD will look on the wrong done to me, and that the LORD will repay me with good for his cursing today.’ So David and his men went on the road, while Shimei went along on the hillside opposite him and cursed as he went and threw stones at him and flung dust. And the king, and all the people who were with him, arrived weary at the Jordan. And there he refreshed himself.”

‘behold, here I am’…the wait and the weepy ascent

Filed under: Waiting — Rachael @ 7:06 PM

2 Samuel 15:25-26 (ESV):

“Then the king said to Zadok, ‘Carry the ark of God back into the city. If I find favor in the eyes of the LORD, he will bring me back and let me see both it and his dwelling place. But if he says, ‘I have no pleasure in you,’ behold, here I am, let him do to me what seems good to him.’ ”

vs. 28 – “See, I will wait at the fords of the wilderness until word comes from you to inform me.’ ”

vs. 30 – “But David went up the ascent of the Mount of Olives, weeping as he went […]”


Filed under: Bible — Rachael @ 7:00 PM

2 Samuel 15:18-21 (ESV):

“And all his servants passed by him, and all the Cherethites, and all the Pelethites, and all the six hundred Gittites who had followed him from Gath, passed on before the king. Then the king said to Ittai the Gittite, ‘Why do you also go with us? Go back and stay with the king, for you a foreigner and also an exile from your home. You came only yesterday, and shall I today make you wander about with us, since I go I know not where? Go back and take your brothers with you, and may the LORD show steadfast love and faithfulness to you.’ But Ittai answered the king, ‘As the LORD lives, and as my lord the king lives, wherever my lord the king shall be, whether for death or for life, there also will your servant be.’ ”

Incidentally, if you say “Ittai” in Japanese, it means something like “ouch!” While it might not make the best baby name, perhaps it would serve as a good name for a faithful pet.

February 18, 2010

Psalm 71:3

Filed under: Refuge — Rachael @ 7:34 PM

“Be to me a rock of refuge, to which I continually come; you have given the command to save me, for you are my rock and my fortress.”

February 6, 2010

Hold Thou My Hand

Filed under: God — Rachael @ 7:01 PM

A facebook friend of mine has this as her status: “Hold thou my hand, so weak I am and helpless I dare not take one step without thy aid”

…Then I found this online, from the website … not sure how accurate it is, but here it is:

“Hold Thou my Hand.” She says, “Hubert P. Main wrote the music for this hymn. For days before I wrote it, all had seemed dark to me. This was an unusual experience, for I have always been most cheerful; and so, in my human weakness, I cried in prayer. ‘Dear Lord, hold Thou my hand!’ Almost at once sweet peace returned to my heart, and my gratitude for answered prayer sang itself in the lines of my hymn”:

“Hold Thou my hand, so weak I am and helpless
   I dare not take one step without Thy aid;
Hold Thou my hand, for then, O loving Saviour,
   No dread of ill shall make my soul afraid.”

After the death of Mr. C. H. Spurgeon,” she adds, “his wife wrote for a copy of this poem, and said she had derived great comfort from hearing it sung.”

Amazing Creation & Moses’ trek

Filed under: Old Testament — Rachael @ 6:42 PM

Just looked at some “wow” quality pictures -probably Germany or/and Switzerland- of my aunt’s on facebook…

What would it be like to see one of those animals or lay down and soak in a gentle breeze, sunshine, and majestic creation…

What would it have been like for Moses to trek up a mountain knowing he was on his path to death, knowing he could never personally reach that promised land just beyond?

Deuteronomy 32:48-52 (ESV):

“That very day the LORD spoke to Moses, ‘Go up this mountain of the Abarim, Mount Nebo, which is in the land of Moab, opposite Jericho, and view the land of Canaan, which I am giving to the people of Israel for a possession. And die on the mountain which you go up, and be gathered to your people, as Aaron your brother died in Mount Hor and was gathered to his people, because you broke faith with me in the midst of the people of Israel at the waters of Meribah-kadesh, in the wilderness of Zin, and because you did not treat me as holy in the midst of the people of Israel. For you shall see the land before you, but you shall not go there, into the land that I am giving to the people of Israel.’ ”

Deuteronomy 34 (ESV):

“Then Moses went up from the plains of Moab to Mount Nebo, to the top of Pisgah, which is opposite Jericho. And the LORD showed him all the land, Gilead as far as Dan, all Naphtali, the land of Ephraim and Manasseh, all the land of Judah as far as the western sea, the Negeb, and the Plain, that is, the Valley of Jericho the city of palm trees, as far as Zoar. And the LORD said to him, ‘This is the land of which I swore to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, ‘I will give it to your offspring.’ I have let you see it with your eyes, but you shall not go over there.So Moses the servant of the LORD died there in the land of Moab, according to the word of the LORD, and he buried him in the valley in the land of Moab opposite Beth-peor; but no one knows the place of his burial to this day. Moses was 120 years old when he died. His eye was undimmed, and his vigor unabated. And the people of Israel wept for Moses in the plains of Moab thirty days. Then the days of weeping and mourning for Moses were ended. And Joshua the son of Nun was full of the spirit of wisdom, for Moses had laid his hands on him. So the people of Israel obeyed him and did as the LORD had commanded Moses. And there has not arisen a prophet since in Israel like Moses, whom the LORD knew face to face, none like him for all the signs and the wonders that the LORD sent him to do in the land of Egypt, to Pharaoh and to all his servants and to all his land, and for all the mighty power and all the great deeds of terror that Moses did in the sight of all Israel.

*boldness added

February 2, 2010

Trading Places

Filed under: Desire,Life,Writing — Rachael @ 9:01 PM

Said the baby to the student, “Would you give me your mouth?”
Replied the student, “Sure, if you would give me your responsibilities.”

Said the student to the fresh graduate, “Would you give me your knowledge?”
Replied the fresh graduate, “Sure, if you would give me the comfort of your home.”

Said the fresh graduate to the seasoned single, “Would you give me your social circles?”
Replied the seasoned single, “Sure, if you would give me your ambition.”

Said the seasoned single to the young married, “Would you give me your bliss?”
Replied the young married, “Sure, if you would give me your freedom.”

Said the young married to the young mother, “Would you give me your enduring grace?”
Replied the young mother, “Sure, if you would give me your rest.”

Said the young mother to the newly empty nester, “Would you give me some peace and quiet?”
Replied the newly empty nester, “Sure, if you would give me youthful chatter.”

Said the newly empty nester to me, “Would you give me your skilled hospitality?”
Replied I, “Sure, if you would give me a few more years.”

Said I to God, “Would you give me life?”
Replied God to me, “I did, and I do. In fact, I gave you my life. Would you give me yours?”


A fictional poem by me

Your Hands

Filed under: God's Faithfulness — Rachael @ 7:21 PM

Here are part of the lyrics to the song Your Hands:

“When my word is shaking, heaven stands

When my heart is breaking

I never leave your hands”

I like that.

January 29, 2010

Psalm 131

Filed under: Quiet — Rachael @ 6:35 AM

Psalm 131 (ESV):

1O LORD, my heart is not lifted up;
my eyes are not raised too high;
I do not occupy myself with things
too great and too marvelous for me.
2But I have calmed and quieted my soul,
like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child is my soul within me.

3O Israel, hope in the LORD
from this time forth and forevermore.

January 28, 2010

Psalm 130

Filed under: Bible,Redemption,Waiting — Rachael @ 8:48 PM

Psalm 130 (ESV):

1Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD!
2O Lord, hear my voice!
Let your ears be attentive
to the voice of my pleas for mercy!

3If you, O LORD, should mark iniquities,
O Lord, who could stand?
4But with you there is forgiveness,
that you may be feared.

5I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
and in his word I hope;
6my soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen for the morning,
more than watchmen for the morning.

7O Israel, hope in the LORD!
For with the LORD there is steadfast love,
and with him is plentiful redemption.
8And he will redeem Israel
from all his iniquities.

January 24, 2010

Look at the birds…

Filed under: God's Faithfulness — Rachael @ 2:55 PM

Matthew 6:25-26 (ESV):

 25“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?


January 15, 2010

“Let The Waters Rise”

Filed under: Suffering — Rachael @ 7:50 PM

You can hear “Let The Waters Rise” here.  Nobly majestically angelic.

January 12, 2010

at the fringe

Filed under: Faith — Rachael @ 9:17 PM

Matthew 9:20-22 (ESV):

20And behold, a woman who had suffered from a discharge of blood for twelve years came up behind him and touched the fringe of his garment, 21for she said to herself, “If I only touch his garment, I will be made well.” 22Jesus turned, and seeing her he said, “Take heart, daughter; your faith has made you well.” And instantly the woman was made well.

Mark 5:25-34 (ESV):

25And there was a woman who had had a discharge of blood for twelve years, and who had suffered much under many physicians, and had spent all that she had, and was no better but rather grew worse. 27She had heard the reports about Jesus and came up behind him in the crowd and touched his garment. 28For she said, “If I touch even his garments, I will be made well.” 29 And immediately the flow of blood dried up, and she felt in her body that she was healed of her disease. 30And Jesus, perceiving in himself that power had gone out from him, immediately turned about in the crowd and said, “Who touched my garments?” 31And his disciples said to him, “You see the crowd pressing around you, and yet you say, ‘Who touched me?'” 32And he looked around to see who had done it. 33But the woman, knowing what had happened to her, came in fear and trembling and fell down before him and told him the whole truth. 34And he said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace, and be healed of your disease.”

Luke 8:43-48 (ESV):

43And there was a woman who had had a discharge of blood for twelve years, and though she had spent all her living on physicians, she could not be healed by anyone. 44She came up behind him and touched the fringe of his garment, and immediately her discharge of blood ceased. 45And Jesus said, “Who was it that touched me?” When all denied it, Peter said, “Master, the crowds surround you and are pressing in on you!” 46But Jesus said, “Someone touched me, for I perceive that power has gone out from me.” 47And when the woman saw that she was not hidden, she came trembling, and falling down before him declared in the presence of all the people why she had touched him, and how she had been immediately healed. 48And he said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.”

August 21, 2016

new post on the old blog.

Filed under: Love,Uncategorized — Rachael @ 12:26 PM

2 verses from 2 songs are now on my fridge:




In both is the idea of wanting to be with God in death. Death is not a taboo topic for me. It’s something real.

Something an elderly woman has said has stuck with me. I may not be getting this exactly right, but, my impression from what she said was that she was looking forward to being with God or seeing Him more than the reunion with people aspect.

I hope to grow in my love toward God. And toward others.

Recently I read the book “Stepping Heavenward: One Woman’s Journey to Godliness,” by Elizabeth Prentiss. It may be largely fiction, but there are spiritual parts woven in, and I wouldn’t be surprised if some or much of it was based on the author’s life or/and of those she knew. Perhaps if the protagonist had heard what I had heard from the elderly lady, earlier on in the story, maybe she would have felt a deficiency in her own love toward God. But perhaps that grew. The author of the story, Prentiss, is the author of “More Love to Thee, O Christ”.

Even in that song, as you can see in the lyrics on the website, you can find a hint of death:

“Then shall my latest breath
Whisper Thy praise;
This be the parting cry
My heart shall raise;
This still its prayer shall be:
More love, O Christ, to Thee,
More love to Thee,
More love to Thee!”

How beautiful to long to praise God and desire to love Him in death. For a beautiful version of this song, I recommend the song sung by Fernando Ortega. I have a lot of his songs.




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